You may be wondering what in the world happened to my Weekly Faith posts (or not haha). I know I said I’d try to get them out every week and honestly, I say a lot of things and I fail a lot. For example, I told myself to publish my Weekly Faiths at the beginning of every week and they tended to come out on Saturday or Sundays–at the end of the week. I said I’d post Commute Blessings or photography posts every month and I forget or get lazy to go through my hundreds of pictures to figure out which ones I’ve used and which ones I haven’t. As for the book I started called Loving The Way Jesus Loves, I hoped blogging about it would help me read it regularly, but it did not help at all. I’m still on the second chapter. Also, I told my friends I would read Proverbs with them throughout the month of April and stopped after the 9th day.
My last Weekly Faith post was exactly a month ago. Lately, I’ve been feeling very dry, very lazy with my faith. In the past month, I’ve only been to church once and that was Easter Sunday. It definitely was a great reminder of the sacrifice Christ made for me but the message delivered in church was only okay to me and didn’t hit me hard like I hoped it would. I haven’t been too into the songs that play on the radio in my car from K-LOVE. I feel like I could be more loving toward the people closest to me.
Bottom line: I’ve just been feeling really lazy. Not only with my blog, but with my faith and life.
I’m definitely not perfect and I’m still trying to figure things out as a working professional. It definitely helps not having a long commute to work anymore, but I still haven’t found that balance of managing time after work between cooking, eating, cleaning, working out, watching YouTube, blogging, webcamming. There’s just so much I want to do and so little time. And notice how doing something God-related didn’t come out in that list at all. That’s how I’ve prioritized my life so far and it’s like it’s hard to fit God into my schedule of so little time.
And how ironic. It’s been exactly one year since I got baptized and on this anniversary of my declaration of faith, I am feeling quite dormant.
But it’s okay. I know God will pull me through this sluggish period, and He will bring me back to life. So until then, I won’t post another Weekly Faith until I feel I have something to post. I don’t want to post Weekly Faiths because I said I will; I want to post Weekly Faiths because I really want to.